My Fortune's Faded

dun ask me wad da past entry was all abt cuz i dunno....maths and hist in 2 days!! *gasp* so close...
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i feel unoreoared....bttr go study after this.haven't even read my history yet, and its chpt 4,5,6,7,8....like whoa. and also its 3 seq and 4sbq,1h15min!!! how da hell am i gonna finish???
argh. and my maths isnt that good either, although it was better than i thought...i could do the algebra and i was so happy with myself LOL....hopefully i won;t get stressed out during the exam and not be able to think straight.
and i've also just realised how much i gotta study 4 sci and geog as well...argh. im gonna hav a crummy weekend this week.

can't wait for MYEs 2 be over..next tuesday!!! so near yet so far, as they all say..
and theres my story. having major writer's block ALL OVER AGAIN...! dammit. i hav a few ideas worth exploring, but i gotta see wad nat says abt all this. and its momma's day on sunday...so i also hafta busy myself wif gettin a prezzie...
man.
can't i be resigned to a better destiny than such??
i did a pretty okay pic. but i hav no time 2 colour, which is sad, cuz it has a great potential if it were coloure.d
ok im sprouting nonsense again. i'm going 2 work on my story. today. i must.
i can;t delay it anymore, cuz its bubbling up...
that will to write, that weird feeling that seems to poke at you and go "pick up that pen and write"...i dunno. i dun understand it myself. its this strange heat that makes me sweat and shiver at the same time. to write. the will to write.

ahhh if one day i meet my muse, what would he say to me? i'd of course, spank it first for going on too mnay vacations...and then it would reply with a snide comment just like i would. my muse...so much like me. almost a part of me...maybe it IS a part of me. God gave me a muse that's different from everyone else, and made me different from everyone else.
the world calls those who can't fit in lost souls.

i think they're just wondering hearts.