Monday, June 28, 2004
4:47 PM
....when His love rained down on me....when His blood rained down on me....
well since in my past post the stupid pic was too big for the page, so here's the link
My best for the best piece of art i've done this whole year!!! XD
right anyway, first day of school. ho wimmensely boering. and burfdaes are feeling so empty and hollow. just another year of my ife. boo. wadevaa. amuda got me a cancer mug n fotoframe. jamie got me a fotoframe from thailand too, wif weird hangy shells o.O haha. wads up wif everyone and fotoframes? XP
yeah. im 14 today. can hardly believe it. hate the fact im not a kid anymore. i never want to grow up. and wads the big deal about birthdays anyway? its just...another year of you life. dunno. just feel really hollow about it all. i could scarcely remember it was birthday. and everyone was wishing me happy bdae, and i felt a bit..dazed? dunno. somewhat, deatched.
something is seriously wrong with me. why am i feeling so empty and light headed? as if nothing in this world is real, has ever been real. maybe its because theres nothing special about birthdays. life goes on. no one really cares. nothing special. no. nothing at all.
Thursday, June 24, 2004
9:59 PM
....wish i could prove i love you..but does that mean i have to walk on water..when we are older you'll understand..what i meant when i said No...i don't think life is quite that simple..
*dances around the room happily and swinging millions of candy-coloured ribbons*
my best cg and lineart this whole year!!!! =D =D =D
hehhss...okay so this started out as a piccy of jim hawkins from treasure planet...and i'm super anti fanart gal, so poor jimmo depleted into another one of my original characterss....=(*pats little jimmy*
haha...but anyways, theres a little story behind this one. he was once the captain of the most notorious space pirate gang in the mutiverse. however, he was mutinied by his bets friend and a rival crew, all out to steal the treasure--at any cost. but he found out, and somehow acquired knowledge of a sinister and essential plot that could be extremely dangerous in the wrong hands. so they erased his memory and planted some false clues, feeding him the story that he was spacwrecked and drifted to a strange little planet. but now a secret organisation is after him, because they know he still knows the secrets to unlocking the mysteries of the world...
erm well, something liddat or other XD someone help me come up with a name for him...
anyways, went underwater world n dolphin lagoon for ipw today! ahah...funss..cleaned up the fish tank..had these huge fishies swimmign around..!! so cool...nathiya n losh were scremaing like morons, and charlena n amuda n i were like....wadeva XP...its so cool seeing all them fish all around ya, close enuf to touch. water damn dirty though XD...then we touched the HUGE sea turtle...fed the sharkies and the rays...(the rays r damn slimy)...n some of teh fish in the underwater world....hehssh!!! so cool...
dolphin lagoon oso quite cool. ale n i were hanging out doing "crowd control" all we did was jus slack and watch the show..! haha...then went to spray disinfectant n ale took the cupouns. ehhs...hat elittle kids. so annoying. ale n i were giving each other wad-am-i-doing-here looks..XD
hahass...sory la...i jus hate kiddies
took mrt wif alethea for a few stops. hehss, we were saying how one dya we would get a house of our own, and fill it wif anime!!! and we'll have huge squall posters, yuna osters, wallpaper...bedsheets wif cloud on it!! hav i mentioned dis before?? aha...we always tok about it. den we were saying, how sometimes we wonder why we still alive when heaven is such a great place? and then we went on to tokkin about janice's brain XD and we agreed tt if we were ever offered janice's brai in exhange, we would never take it..haishh...after this whole holiday of being at home n in solitude, suddenly havi a great fren n social life is so refreshening....it made me feel...happy?perhaps tt shld be the right word..however strange it might be...
my bdae is in 3 days *HINT HINT*
haha kidding.
but im not kiddin abt my bdae...XP
of cuz, dad got me a ps2 liaox...and mum actually got me a pressie XD...watching movie wif ale on sunday!!! (wer gonna sneak n watch harry potter)...looks like dats all i'll be gettin dis year..yeahh well...its typical really...
bdaes r feeling so hollow.
okay shut up moronic depressing fe...
hehhss...my fren has now discovered three fes!! dark fe, aquatic fe n insaniac fe!!! yay!!!
Out in stores now...!
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
8:25 AM
Monday, June 21, 2004
10:15 PM
You're depressed. Really you are. And you
definitely have a reason. You often space out
and stare at things blankly, even if you're
normally hyper and energetic. This is because
nothing really seems important anymore. You
might just be sad right now, or you might be
manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa
and stuff'll be ok.
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......make me beautiful...nip/tuck...
I GOT MY PLAYSTATION!!!
heeehee...=D
its been a long while! anyways, i'm currently playing kingdom hearts!! now sora seems cool...at level 14 alice in wodnerland..irritating mushrooms are hard to jump! but its fun anyways. and final fantasy x2 ish cool...esp yuna's dance...and star ocean is hard to play, cuz its all in jap..in fact all my games r in jap!XD but wad de hell ya?
i've been doing alot of new art lately...go check out my deviant art page...its in the links =)self-promotion? hehhs yepperss...;)
weiss kreuz gluhen is cool...i finished watching it. it's nice and gothic and theres fighting and blood XD okay so i like it big deal..bleghss
haish...the holz r ending soon..workin on my homework...still have my science, maths,geog n hmt to do...kaozz..how siann...oh wellss...jus hafta endure and do.i watched Around the world in 80 days...very very very very funny..! laugh till i almost fell off the seat...jackie chan rocks!!
red rain rawkss as much!! RED RAIN!!! haha...went for the concert...it was damn fun and damn cool...man oh man... XD
hahaa...
since im feeling as if this blog is very empty and lacking storiess.....
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No hope. No hope.
It revolved in his head, orbiting the center which was a mammoth sun of pain. Look at me, he thought to himself. Just look at me. No home, no family, no one he loved or cared for. Why should he even bother breathing? It was a perfect waste of precious oxygen, he pondered darkly. His planet was lying somewhere in the galaxy, a million shards of nothingness. His family was nothing but ashes and dust—destroyed, burnt, lost. Dead. What a pitiful reality, he thought to himself. A pitiful reality indeed. He curled up tighter into himself, hugging his knees with one arm and staring out the huge transparisteel glass windows—looking out into the vast emptiness and abysmal black of space. Little dots, pathetic examples of planets, nestled happily in their little cosmic lines of orbit. Coral-like shards of asteroid fodder swam in the black sea of emptiness, disintegrating and catching fire as they went, only to disappear as they ceased to exist once again. How much he felt a part of it all. He felt like the hollow shell of space, a walking body with no spirit. Within him sparks of hope, of light and warmth burst into flame, only to die away soon after. And then he was hollow again, lost in a dream and dazed with the darkness eating away at his heart. The darkness, ah yes! How he wanted to embrace it and bring it in. To feel its cold and black infinity wrap around him. Beautiful, sweet, delectable darkness.
He stared blankly into the air. His head was void of thoughts—no emotions no pictures, not even a single memory. What had his mother looked like? Had he had a mother in the first place? He did not even know. Who was he? He couldn’t even think of that either. It was all just a sheet of cold obsidian black. The metal floor, releasing its heat and feeling ever so chilly, it felt like part of him. He seemed to merge into its iciness, becoming one with everything all around him.
“Sir?” a gentle voice came from the door. He hardly heard it—it was so faraway. What did it say? He couldn’t understand.
“Your medicine sir.”
He heard them, but they were only a faint, tiny voice. Like someone crying out in the vast expanse of space. A tiny, ant-sized voice.
“Sir,” this time it grew vaguely louder. “You have to take your medicine.”
She walked up to him, and that was a great mistake. He felt her presence so strongly, her innate happiness and calm. With one swipe of his hand, he sent the tray flying across the room. He didn’t even look at her—he did not want to. The nurse scurried away as quickly as she came, and all that was left was the discarded tray and the hiss of the closing door.
He looked down at his hands. Hand, he corrected himself. One was as it has always been—calloused and tanned. The other was gone. In fact, his entire arm was gone and all that was left was his bandaged shoulder. Burned away like a match lit by fire. What was he going to do with just one hand? One pathetic arm. Would everyone stare at him? Would they point and laugh at his empty sleeve? He wanted to just break through the windows and break apart in the anti-gravity of space and the galaxy. It was all over, all his hopes and reams, all that he loved all that he aspired to. It had crumbled right in front of him, like a snowy avalanche of white brightness. Falling into eternal pits of the Dark.
He was consumed. He felt heartless, as the black devoured what was left of his soul and turned it into an endless pool of emptiness. The tears traced their oaths down his cheeks, but he didn’t notice as they flitted to the ground, or as they ran down his chin. He only wish he could pull his own heart out and end all that he was living in.
After all, he didn’t feel like he was breathing anymore
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no one except one friend has ever read that before..that was written when my ps2 almost got taken away...and i was depressed...so..yeah...
Monday, June 07, 2004
6:46 PM
....upod my end shall i begin..forsaking all i've fallen for...i rise to heed the call..
ahh...
i'm back:)
how long has it been?? forever i should think. or maybe just a week XD lolx. little bits of updates ya? i went to KL..Sunway Lagoon...
damn it was fun!!
first day, we just slacked about in the hotel room. man that place is huge! leve; 13 is the ground level, and the bottom ones are underground, while the top ones up to 21 are way high above...how awesome is that? they dug a depression to build the place...and the whole place is like asian and roman or something. there are lots of roman columns and long french windows, but there are also huge elephant statues and there's this pond at the lobby where there are tigers chasing deer. LOL...but the hotel is just awesome.
our room was a suite, kinda big. i watched HBO like so much..everyday! let's see, i watched
+eight legged freaks
+ghost cAt
+the time machine
+pink cadillac
+when in rome
+swordfish
+vanilla sky
heehee
but anyway, on to the theme park!!!
the water rides were so fuunnn!!! had one which went up down up down and UUUPPPP! and the others were really twisty. i got my mum to sit wif me(wowo miracle!) and she played bluff. like okay....finally???hahas..other than the slides and all there wasnt much else. oh yar that huge pool thing, with the artificial waVEs--which are damn cool-- and the egyptian stuff around it...the rest is kiddy stuff. oh then went to the dry rides..so fun! rode the rollercoaster with my dad, and also the galleon(big swinging ship), water rollercoaster with my mum+dad, ferris wheel, teapot rotating thing, the spaceship....it was soo awesome!!
went shopping too ahah...they have their own shopping centre! anyway, found this store tt sells all kinds of anime dvd!!! gaspp!!! got weib kreuz gluhen,saiyuki reload n clamp x movie!! man....and best of all
SQUALL'S NECKLACE!!!!!
*yells*
heehe..also got The Da Vinci code.oopsssss....
yep tt was pretty much my holiday.
gonna watch my anime now!!
