boo!!!
^__^
heehee...i am hyper todae! yayness..
lalala I LOVE THE OLYMPICS!!!
yesh i do!! its ending tomorrow..man!! im totally gonna miss watching it! and IAN THORPE IS BETTER THAN MICHAEL PHELPS.
^^"
but i STILL LOVE THE OLYMPICS!
jiawei n susilo will do better next time and we'll get a medal! yesh we will!!!
tralala...u noe c5's commercials for olympics are damn cooL? esp the one where someone jumps out of the water and the splash makes the olympics logo...and also the one where a guy claps his hands and the sand becomes the logo too^__^
can't believe the olympics is over so soon..:(
hahaha...i missed most of de atheletics but i watched alot of swimming and diving and gymnastics...even some hockey ^__^ i saw de discus! omg its so bloody far...X3 erm well durh i guess...lol
i did a pic for olympics nya! cant believe it...haha..i'll colour it soon..i hope...

You have a Lost Soul. No one is really sure what
that can always mean, because it can be defined
in many ways. As Legend goes, lost souls were
the spirits of passed away people who are
neither in heaven nor hell. They walk the
earth, brooding mysteriously, always appearing
when you expect it least. So hence, if you have
a Lost Soul, then you are probably very
insecure and shy. Stuck in your own little box,
you watch the world fly by as a loner. You dont
know your place. You seemingly dont have a
place in society or an interest. You are a very
capricious person, and are confused and
frustrated about where you belong. You crave
for the sense and feeling of home-but have not
obtained it yet.

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You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.

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D N angel...i was wtaching it this morning...its really cool and dats why u see daisuke's face here..changed blog n tagboard...i think its abt time hurh.
slacked de whole day.
im now addicted to oekaki as well...oekaki rules!!
need to do my hw.
dammmnnn. i hate life. i hate stupid tuition..yes i will bitch about it. im going to fall asleep...
argh.
oh and i just created a new character.
his name is Angelo St Lyon.
thats all i really know...
my mus eis still on holiday. damn and curse it.

i think this is the most blood i've ever drawn.
the blade i used was sharper this time. im bleeding. its red and it flows....i feel...dead.
i feel hopeless.
im writing fucking shit. and my tagboard is fucked up.
i hate my life so much, i hate the way nothing ever works out.
i hate that everything seems to conspire against me
i hate that other people have evrything adn still complain
it makes me sick.
people think i have everything in the world but i don't.
they'll never understand...
the pain
the depth
loss
despair
loneliness.
they'll never know.

okay
i need to ice down a bit,cuz i think today i have way too much emotions. i'm feeling agry and sad and depressed and shocked and shaken and happy and hyper and really really really lonely.
which is worst??
i have no idea. im feeling veyr wrong and confused. i cant even think straight for more than one second. im dead serious about dat. i couldnt even think when misstan gave us dat damned info report. and when i was copying science i kept writing voices instead of wires.
oh god in heaven wad de hells happening to me....
i feel sad i guess. first of all.
alethea is goin vjc....cant stand it how m i gonna live nex year?? not lyk i got alot of christian anime pals. cant name another other than alyssa n nat. my life is takin a huge plunge. i know dat i should be happy and all, but everyday shes always saying im goin vj next year! i dun need to do dis and dat and put up wif dis and dat. and i always smile adn say yeah, u're life is gonne b awesome im sure you'll have a great time. and its really hollow and i think she knows it, cuz whenever i say it i feel so damn lost and alone and sad all of a sudden. and i get reminded of it every damn day. it makes me feel so empty...loosing another fren after nat n nigel...
and tim is movin to brazil end year. damn. why is it dat whenever i start gettin to noe someone dey get pulled away like hell from me. and brazil....oh god brazil...and i dun think i'll see him anytime soon.

angry. gleaming white anger.
i hav no idea why. i noe i shldnt b mad at tinetine for using my table dis morning, but for some unknown reason i jus felt all dat hate and emptiness broil over, and i felt like yelling at her to move her ass. i think i was being a real bitch all day, but i couldnt help it. dere was just too much for me to keep hidden and it was all coming close to spilling. there's no one i can just start sobbing to and it feels so lonely again....

surpsrised shell shocked.
glenn is dep head prefect. how can dat flamin dumbass of a bakayarou be dep head??? hes totally slack and corrupted and i completely wanna murder him..its disgraceful to all de dao ppl on earth dat hes being a dep head. and on my way home from school i saw a motorcyce somersault in the air. this car cut in front of him and he lost control. whole bike when swivelling and he got thrown onto the ground....he wasn't hurt or anything but i was damned scared. or maybe chilled was de right word. i jus looked out my window wif huge saucer eyes and stared. i felt so...dead? in a way i was sure if he had been hurt i'd have strated crying...maybe it was because of an extra blow on top of everything else inside...but i was feeling both dead and pained...i cant explain it really...

i just feel so burdened. eveyrthing is like a drag. and the most frightening par tof it is dat i dont wanna cry or sob or yell or complain or whine or even so much as spit on the ground. and i think wad freaks me out most is that i look at the death the hurt the pain the loneliness....
the way ppl leave..
my frens goin away
the hollow feeling
the drakness creeping around me.

and all i did was stare at it, lean back on my chair and laugh.

bad mix of tired, insane, hyper, depressed and gothic.
math test history test training
rest sleep blake mcintyre story playing pretend
natalie nigel alethea jamie sheng gen
prelims streaming doub science purelit VIP
farah fun wish you were here
life is full of shit.
you gotta log through it. why the f*** do we hafta do dat.
cant believe it.
alethea's goin victoria next year
IP
integrated
smart gurl
miss her
first nat n nigel
pris n amelia
farah
gen n joanne
now alethea janice
why is it always this way...
can't help the way i feel.

it's always the ones closest to you that you lose.

helllio!!! *woot*
^__^
konnichiwaa! ohayou!
haha....im going jap very soon...^__^....
seriously. oh yes! my pic got published in MAGE august! *jiggies round room*
hehs. and for all ya anime fans deprived of axn and good internet space....

NARUTO IS OUT IN SINGAPORE!! KAKASHI-SAN! SASUKE-SAN!!!

okay i am SO obssessing but WHO CARES. i already got the vcds and i wanna watch it! kakashi-sama rawkss!!!!! yippeeeyayayippeeyippeeyayyippeeyayayippeeyippeeyay....!!!
get backers is pretty good. read the fith book i think...and i hate that stupid blondie woman. Ban-san rawks! he is teh demon wif glasses ^__^ im dying to watch my naruto!! lahalalalla....
^__^
training started! friday's training was okay i guess. only huey ying and gracia n de sec1 jumpers+throwers n me were dere. did drills lah and i realised how out of shape i am. my leg damn suan. and den we played captian's ball and WON!! ^__^. erm yippee? lollx. i guess it was a pretty okay first training, and mr seem was actually quite nice. more training on monday to get back in condition..i hope we do weights ^__^ and macritchie on wedenesday...for x country...damn im so gonna die. my stamina sucks like hell.....
i have 71/2 hrs of studying to complete by today. can i say yay in a very sarcastic and unenthusiastic tone of voice? yes i think so...plus i need to get kah wah's bdae prezz when i have no idea wad de hell to buy for a guy....meep. XD i think i'll go to life bkshop in causeway and end up a few secs later at comics conn....props for fe...
i gave my pledge to the building fund for this month and im pretty much broke. also from spending on MAGE and naruto...i have a grand total of.....$20! eveyrone say yay!!!*rolls eyes*

well whatever. which reminds me...i need to continue on with my story...and can you believe i got inspired by Fillmore????? *dies*'
de world is coming to an end.....
~gambatte ne!

its national day!
i've been thinking about netional days. and i suddenly realised how i've had three great national days in a row. in primary 5 was of course the nE show...my first time in the national stadium! and eveyrone was so enthu and we felt suddenly patriotic. and for the first time in my life i saw fireworks so close!

then there was primary 6, and we were at priscilla's house. and i remember it drizzled but we dashed out to the playground to watch the fireworks from atop the slide. it was de second time i saw fireworks and i was suddenly so glad to be part of singapore.

and of course there was last year. when cedar was in ndp! it was one of the awesomest times of my life. i didn't actually dance on that day and its a long story on that one which i dun wanna take the pains of recounting. but it was still awesome to stand and root for all your frens, and wish them the best in their 5 minutes of national fame. then there was watching the fireworks from the indoor stadium....man it was the closest i have ever gone! i remember it was alethea and i, and we stood and stared at the glinting fireworks in amazement-- it was almost like magic! and then we looked at singapore, our island city, alight and dotted with glowing pinpoints. and then we felt like this was home, and this was where we would always be. part of cedar. part of singapore. part of my HOME.

and now this night. 39 years old, singapore. i'm sitting at home tapping this out while watching a tribute to goh chok tong. can't say i dun care dat he's stepping down. i've prac grown up listening to his rally speeches, seeing him on the national tv screen. i think it's gonna be strange, because my idea of pm has always been pm goh. so deres one big change. and then i look at singapore. such a diverse numbe rof races! how could i never realise the fascination and surprise that so many peoples could live together. and then i look at how i always complain...school is so stressing, the weather is so hot, singapore is so tiny, singapore has not enough anime, singapore is so pathetic and stuff is expensive. then i look again at singpore, especially in the night, and on this day, and sometime sother days, it looks so beautiful. and i feel strangely ecstatic to know that hey, look! see that tiny, cool, awesomely great little island ntion over there? yeah! singapore! thats my home!

so here's to you singapore. thank you for making me part of you/ thank you for taking half the time of the other countries to advance to this stage. thank you for what you've made me. thank you for the way you made my life cool.

thank you for being my home. jia. this is where i won't be alone.for this is where i know it's home.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

wtf.
cant believe the unfairness of life. mum said i can go out tmr wif ale 2 wtahc ella enchanted, den now dad sms and say NOOOO i cant go.
wth.
i alr cancelled tuition and swapped my library time and i was looking forward to it so much and now u just squash all my hopes like dat. and its not mums fault. why de hell did he have to go to taipei huh? and hu asked him to take such a bloody long time to replY? im sorry but the whole world isnt gonna wait for you. i cant believe how unreasonable this is. and here i was getting all happy for once, and everything jus has to collapse. and he says i have to CONVINCE him to let me go. wad de hell do i look like, a bloody nypd negotiator?! or do i hav to BEG and GROVEl just to go. come on man who u think u r? its as if i have to prostrate at ur feet just so you'll let me go.
i mean im 14 for gods sake. and one day--national day-- one half day is it so much to ask? to go out wif frens and actually HAVE a social life? even teh SCHOOL is celebrating so why cant u just LIGHTEN UP dammit. wad de hell is wrong wif you?
i cant stand it. i feel like just going out anyway and NOT CARING.
because seriously i DONT
dis is just too much for me to take. im nto even asking for dat much. just some time wif my frens, alone AWAY. besides ur an entire OCEAN apart so wad de hell difference is it gonna make HUH?
i dont understand why life does dis to me.
letting de little joy in my world crumble before my eyes.
he has no idea de kind of anger and disappointment i feel.
he ha sno idea how bloody unreasonable he is.
and making it sound lyk its MY fault i dint tell him.i wa sonly asked today. and if he hadnt taken soooo long to reply i wuld hav had a first hand notice. if he werent on some stupid business trip he wuldnt have to do this. i wuldnt have to watch my frens n freedom dissipate in front of my eyes. its not my fault dat u had to fly off to some stupid country. dun u dare blame anyone else. because for once id like not to be the scapegoat.
because frankly i am goddamn sick and tired of it.

i live the lifestyle of the bored and interminably uninterested, it seems, since i am here to blog. againwhoopee.
some highlights for today. i guess it passed kinda fast. most pissing was me leaving my file in de pile of sci wb, and running all around the bloody school lookin 4 de damn thing. when i finally found it and got 2 de track 4 jogging,miss leong dragged me off to mark rounds for sec3 2.4....like wtf?! i call dat obssessive-picking-on-innocent-throwers-u-happen-to-noe....bleghss.
ok so whatever. did i mention tay? yar. he said he could find our blogs easily. and im like wadeva..*rolls eyes* lyk i care if u read it blehhgks. nothing much for u to see neway. except bombardments of strangely eccentric cheemology which is utterly uncalled for just to drive you away.
^__^
ahh dat blessed smiley. no idea how much i like it, cuz its good natured and infuriating at the same time..heehee =D okay wad wer eu expectin from evil ole moi....oh sam sent me dis crazy op song from excel saga....damn funny!! deres a coughing fit in de middle of it, as if the singer were sarcastic. img....so bloody funny!!....heehee...ok im goin insane again.
oh!oh! maria sent me loads of nice new little mcfly n busted songs!! man i love mcfly!! okay deres space for onli one mrs mcfly but still mcfly rawkss....! ^__^
tralala....
hmphh....suddenly i have no idea wad to blog abt XD
my day has been B-O-R-I-N-G boring. i actually studied three hours today. is dat totally baffling or wad? and i jus realised de urgency of getting something to wear for HoGC anniversary on sunday. and oso half day ndp celeb is in 2 day's time...*stares incredulously*
oh god which reminds me how i DREAD absolutely DESPISE the chinese test tmr. i spent almost 2 hours studying for it. its unholy, i tell you. and deres geog too, but i think i can manage dat alright. oh and bleghs, since dere is a science test on thursday.....
and guitar tmr!!! diee!!!! i completely 4got the chords for the Fortune Faded chorus. man iom totally slaughtered....
*cries and dissolves into a pile on de floor*
ladies and gentlemen
fe has officially been declared
suspended within the realm of semireality in an alternate universe neither real nor imaginary.
in other words, slickaazz...
i'm dead!!!!

hmmm everyone should go download http://x2.mdjinfo.net/music/mp3/Free_Bird.mp3 !!!
its some great music, instrumental. yep. very nice...it's called Free Bird....go dl now!! i command you!
err right. i dint go to sch today....had gastric n headache. blegkhs. i passed my chinese oral!! omg! i totally passed my oral! 19/30!! okay so it sucks but at da very damn least i passed!
*does happy jig ard room*
and i managed to finish 15 hours XD...can hardly believe it...felt half dead after doin maths. culdnt concentrate head was pounding like hell. now i feel better at least. i still havent written my zuowen. omg. heehee. gonna do friday's math hw later n if i can be bothered, today's. ^__^ im stone, my apologies to all.
since i cannot be a slacker, i shall be stone...^.^
*diao*-_-"

like whateverr fe.
jeez man, i got mc for jogging tmr! but i definitely gonna take 5 items on thursday. crappidoodies.=) oh yeah, i was on fic press and dere was dis acebandit guy who wrote damn sucky fics, so clement critiqued him and he spammed his inbox. like how immature is that. i left a few critiques, not even flames. it was pretty pathetic "flaming" if u ask me. and he deleted everything. stupid guy. thinks so highly of himself....he's never gonna improve dat way....
okay like im dat good or anything, but if deres one thing i've learnt is dat u should never hate anyone for being a critic. it helps you improve. seriously.
speaking of fics, i still havnt written that chicken soup essay thingy. like hu cares, im past the due date anyway. maybe i'll do it tomorrow or something XD....

yes for de third time I AM STONE. FEAR ME. MUAHAHAHA....
*gets weird stares*
-_-"
hehe. u noe i still have a grudge against my eng teach. for being obssessively biased. i still remember how she asked christine to go for an essay comp, but dint even ask me. and when elaine said, why dint u ask fedora? she replied, oh she's weird she won't go. like wtf....what rubbish! as shirlyn would say, this is atrocious! cant stand it. and no matter how much effort i put into a compo, she will ALWAYS give christine one mark higher. just because tine is always being vocal and paying apt attention and being witty to her. like whatever.
*rolls eyes*
and i thought i was being paranoid or maybe even jealous that tine was getting higher than me. even to the point i was wondering if i was a complete failure and that i was so terrible in writing that i can't even beat miss-happy-happy-yellow-rainbow-smiley-face christine. no off to tine, but tho she's sarcastic and all, she IS a happy smiley girl. you shuld see the stuff she writes. its so...HAPPY...XP. i was so disillusioned dat i sucked big time and i had no talent for writing at all dat i turned to art...and would hav remianed dere if maria hadn't told me once, dat, even tho tine was her fren and she was meaning no offense, misstan was biased and i was the better writer. i guess dat gave me a bit of confidence. so how am i gonna solve miss biasness' problem? im gonna write a compo so utterly close to perfection she HAS to grade me better than christine. my goal in life is to beat tine every time theres a compo.
ack.

okay. its either i hav too little self conf or my head has swelled. i hope its the former. and if my head really HAS swelled, then all i gotta say is im sorry but writing is the only bloody thing im good at and dats why im so desperate about it.
so there.