wtf.
cant believe the unfairness of life. mum said i can go out tmr wif ale 2 wtahc ella enchanted, den now dad sms and say NOOOO i cant go.
wth.
i alr cancelled tuition and swapped my library time and i was looking forward to it so much and now u just squash all my hopes like dat. and its not mums fault. why de hell did he have to go to taipei huh? and hu asked him to take such a bloody long time to replY? im sorry but the whole world isnt gonna wait for you. i cant believe how unreasonable this is. and here i was getting all happy for once, and everything jus has to collapse. and he says i have to CONVINCE him to let me go. wad de hell do i look like, a bloody nypd negotiator?! or do i hav to BEG and GROVEl just to go. come on man who u think u r? its as if i have to prostrate at ur feet just so you'll let me go.
i mean im 14 for gods sake. and one day--national day-- one half day is it so much to ask? to go out wif frens and actually HAVE a social life? even teh SCHOOL is celebrating so why cant u just LIGHTEN UP dammit. wad de hell is wrong wif you?
i cant stand it. i feel like just going out anyway and NOT CARING.
because seriously i DONT
dis is just too much for me to take. im nto even asking for dat much. just some time wif my frens, alone AWAY. besides ur an entire OCEAN apart so wad de hell difference is it gonna make HUH?
i dont understand why life does dis to me.
letting de little joy in my world crumble before my eyes.
he has no idea de kind of anger and disappointment i feel.
he ha sno idea how bloody unreasonable he is.
and making it sound lyk its MY fault i dint tell him.i wa sonly asked today. and if he hadnt taken soooo long to reply i wuld hav had a first hand notice. if he werent on some stupid business trip he wuldnt have to do this. i wuldnt have to watch my frens n freedom dissipate in front of my eyes. its not my fault dat u had to fly off to some stupid country. dun u dare blame anyone else. because for once id like not to be the scapegoat.
because frankly i am goddamn sick and tired of it.