cigarettes and rum in hand a little bag to sell
I am the son of a bitch and Edgar Allen Poe
Race to the city in the hail of light
But ain't it worth it that we've been victimized
I'm the patron saint of the denial
With an angel face and a taste for suicidal

green day-ish now. trala. they're a great band. haha with alot of fuck n stuff in their songs. but oh heck. rflects my feelings so well sometimes....
anyway. science and history papers tmr. feeling kinda freaked. and i suddenly regret not studying harder. dunno. ain it strange for me to do dat? lol.
u noe, i just realised how i always say lol and never really mena it. lol is suppose to mean laugh out loud right? funny thing is dat i use it most often when i dont feel like laughing at all. paradox.
life is full of paradoxes. doxi. erm. watever the plural for paradox is.
i feel. yeah. strange, i;m tlaking strange too. i've been saying dude too much.
and. oh watever.
i just dunno wat to say anymore. everything seems fucked up. not in a pissed-off sense, but in a confused sense. i mean, its like im suddenly feeling so afraid of tmr, and yet i dun feel like studying. its like there isnt anything to study anymore. i did da file n da tb n da wbk n da notes n hist text too. everything seems covered. yet i feel so damn unprepared. i kepe getting dat feelin im gonna flop again tmr. its bloody freaking me out okay.

argh. i need to have more faith dammit. how can i doubt god so much? this isnt even chinese we're talking abt, its science and history. my mediocre subjects in which i can do vaguely alright. why am i so frickin scared? argh. i feel disgusted with myself. i feel tired too. really really tired for some dumb reason. just feel like lounging around the rest of the day. 6 more days and all this can finally end.
i think i'm gonna think abt somethign else.
maria is goin for da alicia keys concert now. oh blah to her. so unfair. im stuck at home. fuck. argh. well watever. nancy just went for her art class. double blah. nancy lives in holland n has a great guy n is gonna get married soon n has a home on her own n her parents r ncie n shes studying deisgn n she has money to go for art classes. one day i'll write a song about her. i dunno just feel like it. it would make...a good song.
my mum is being idiotic again. bugging me to studystudystudy again. and study math at dat. like watever. i cant study, i'll just panic myself even more. i'll be like memorise memorise memorise until my brain overloads and turns to mush. i think i;m going to draw n write some nonsense to try and get back to normal again.
well i'll blog a bit about school. this entry is ridiculously long.

yeah. school has been alright i guess. amira,amuda,me,ger all joined tables. at first binsan n kk were joined too, but all the teachs got pissed n told us to move. so annoying, neway its amu mirar me n ger. yep. its fun sitting dere ahha. cuz mirar is crap and amuda is nonsense n im a lamer. so taa. and ger is incredibly lame. haha. n muda n i r always on mp3 when deres no teach...and always singing. haha...ever since sitting wif amu i been hanging out w her more. dunno y...she influenced me n now im as sick as her...omg...n im beginning to get more n more fucking vulgar. erh. yep....im going daft punk oh my god....seriously. i went to cut my hair shorter n guy-ishly. tho dere ain much diff.
yeah.
anyway bottom line is dat i cant wait for exams to end so i can go wild. n i cant wait to move to dhoby(church) n YOUTH CAMP..wootz...
im gonna totally go rad if my mum doesnt let me go out after lit exam. i swear i will scream. blah.
ok dis is getting too damn long.