i think i make
a great seer.
rmb when i said
something bad was gonnahappen today?
i was so fucking right.
whole science paper. prac dint noe wad was happening.
mind went blanco-blank.
culd hardly think of a dman thing.
was flipping like a mad girl. and everyone was so relaxed.
fucking relaxed
goddamit. after the xam, i just kept quiet.
felt all stony.
and fucked up. because basically the exam was a fuck up.
dint feel much better. avoided the janicealecassk preps.
culdnt stand feleing stupid anymore
i guess. they prob aced it
and i dint need to feel any dumber thna i felt right then.
anyway. went back to class. and studied with amu n maria. we were so fuckign stressed and pissed.
cuz we felt demoralised. cuz of fuckign science. ..
and dis is wat happened.

maria: i bet amoudtha wished she was in the 'fucking era'
fefe: haha yeah she totally would want to sit there and just fuck
amoudtha : pls lor! i won't stand there and just fuck. stupid fucking racial riots. the chinese ppl are fucking stupid
fefe: HEY! helloo? im chinese. man chinese ppl arent fucking stupid
maria: yeah if there's anyone fucking annoying its indians dude. racial riots between chinese and malays, and you fucking guys just sit there and watch us fight.
amoudtha : yeah so what. at least i dont go fucking fight. we indians allowed u guys to fight while we fucked others to increase sgp's population
maria: yeah and u know what i fucking noticed? indians were sari's yeah. they're fuck-friendly. see, u just lift it up and fuck.
fefe: HAHAHAHA fuck friendly. saris are totally fuck friendly
amoudtha: hellooo you think you malays are so good. your baju kurung's also fuck friendly
maria: dude, i'm fucking eurasian. not fucking malay
fedora :fuck friendly.. HAHAHAHAHA
amoudtha : fuck you maria
maria : fuck you lah amoudtha *sticks tongue out* you two fefe. fuck ya.
fefe : oh shut up maria. fuck u
amoudtha: these are my fucking notes and im off.
fefe and maria :FUCKING HELL AMOUDTHA COME BACK WITH THE FUCKING NOTES
amoudtha : nah fuck you
maria : No fucking hell you fucking bitch. come back mofo!
fefe: we need to fucking memorise or we'll fucking fail the fucking history test like the fucking science test.
all of us: HAHAHAHA. let's fucking memorise it.

meh. i bet we were fucking loud. and eveyrone was fucking staring. i culdnt fucking care neither. it wa sfucking funny..we were laughhing. i just realised that when ur extremely depressed and icy, u tend to go insane and laugh. like when u cry when ur happy. another paradox.
its rainign now...fits my mood i guess. i cna hear the thudner..calling to me from far away...i wanna feel the rain onmy face, soaking through...
maybe then. i can get a fucking life.