its been another day
of big fake smiles and stupid lies.
amber died last night.
stupid doctors.
stupid pet sellers
hate them.
i want to just call them
and yell at them
what the hell u trying to do?
my dog died because u dint even see she was sick.
u stupid moronic assholic idiots.
u dare call urselves doctors.
u dare sell pets
when u dun even care for them.
u stupid ignorant cruel disgusting fucking bastards.
go to frikkin hell and just screw urselves.
shes dead dammit.
how can she be dead?
she was so young..a puppy for god's sakes..
how could you just let her die?
i miss her
ive only had her a week
and i miss her so much
life is so unfair.
so damn unfair.
i look at her cage, folded up, her collar sitting quietly
her water bowl, still around the house
her basket of food
everything that i loved about her
her picture is on my phone in my wallet
all i can think of is her
because i miss her and i love her
and i wish she were still here
i wish it so badly.
i miss seeing her stare at me with her round eyes,
look pathetic with her floppy ears
whine when i walk away and cuddle in my legs when i take her
i miss wlaking her, hoping some day to see her
grown
beautiful.
but all that is gone. her hopes her dreams all she could've been
taken away
snuffed out just.like.that.
my amber
i miss you so much.
ur the only dog i will ever love truly.
i want to go out there and shoot down everyone who wronged you
i want you back here with me
but will this bring you back?
will all my bawling, my tears, my pain, my love
all the wishing i do, all the broken hopes i nurse
will it bring you back, amber?
no.
nothing will ever bring you home again.