....when His love rained down on me....when His blood rained down on me....

well since in my past post the stupid pic was too big for the page, so here's the link My best for the best piece of art i've done this whole year!!! XD

right anyway, first day of school. ho wimmensely boering. and burfdaes are feeling so empty and hollow. just another year of my ife. boo. wadevaa. amuda got me a cancer mug n fotoframe. jamie got me a fotoframe from thailand too, wif weird hangy shells o.O haha. wads up wif everyone and fotoframes? XP
yeah. im 14 today. can hardly believe it. hate the fact im not a kid anymore. i never want to grow up. and wads the big deal about birthdays anyway? its just...another year of you life. dunno. just feel really hollow about it all. i could scarcely remember it was birthday. and everyone was wishing me happy bdae, and i felt a bit..dazed? dunno. somewhat, deatched.

something is seriously wrong with me. why am i feeling so empty and light headed? as if nothing in this world is real, has ever been real. maybe its because theres nothing special about birthdays. life goes on. no one really cares. nothing special. no. nothing at all.